I like this guy..(plz help)?

Ok first of all i am underage to have a email but my parents let me so here is my story i am 10 years old and i have had a bf before without my parents finding out and no i did not break up with him or he didnt break up with me he moved and i never heard of him again ok so his name is Rudy and his parents are divorced so i only see him 1 time a week but he is so hot he is a skater boi and he is like so rude to his cuz and he talks funny and he is so cool and i love hm but i have been trying for the longest guys help how do you guys like to know that a girls like you espetiolly skater guys and jocks